The Rosie Bee

Starring Grizzy and Sophie

Mind-dump March!

on March 5, 2018
Sophie on the dresser looking down at me.

My view as I try to meditate.

I feel like this is Sophie looming over me, saying, “You haven’t blogged lately…”.

I do have a ton of picutres to upload, I just haven’t gotten around to it. February was such a whirlwind and so far March has been, too. Lots going on at work, so I get home and flop on the couch. I think it’s one of those seasons of life. I have energy, but I feel like I have no time. I think I have this low-grade anxiety that came out of nowhere. Maybe because of some family stuff?

This all makes me feel really lonely, too. :/ But I know we all have the same 24 hours in a day, it’s how we choose to spend it, so I’m trying to change this.

Anyhow…some random thoughts:

  • I got up a little earlier than usual today. I’d like to continue getting up earlier. An extra 15 minutes in the morning seems to make the entire day go better for me.
  • I had an awful dream that I lost a loved one last night. It’s hard to be at the age when you have to start having serious talks with aging loved ones. Who is your power of attorney? Do you have a Five Wishes document? Where are your health insurance documents in case I or someone else needs them? What happens when the person is gone and I miss them so very much?
  • Along those lines, I’ve been thinking about people I used to be close with but have drifted from. What happened? Was it me? Will I ever talk with them again? It’s especially odd in a world of social media where you can see people posting and them interacting with others but your messages to them get no response. (It’s also awkward when you know you will see at least one of these people in the relatively near future…what do you say then?)
  • I seem to be having this project paralysis of sorts. For example, I’m taking a sweater knitting class and I started the arms but I had to miss the last class and now I’m paralyzed. I’m scared to start them again because what if I screw up the arms? The arms are done by knitting in the round, which is awkward no matter what and it’s a completely new-to-me technique so ahh! I freeze. I need to get over this fear but how? (Also, how annoying is this fear and where did it come from?!)
  • To end on a positive note, it’s March! My goals for March are to wake up a little earlier than usual during the week (15 minutes earlier, to be exact) and meditate daily. So far I’ve missed two days, but hey, it’s a work in progress. I’m trying out a few meditation apps to see which one I like best. Let me know if you have a favorite you’d recommend!

    Have a wonderful week!

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    One response to “Mind-dump March!

    1. Rene says:

      I used to listen to the podcast 10 minute meditations. It was short enough to fit into each day, but still useful.

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